Excruciating Agony: A Personal Struggle With the Enigmatic Pain of Cluster Headaches

It began on a overcast weekday in the morning in the autumn of 2016. I worked as a teacher, trying to settle a new group of students, when a intense sensation bloomed behind my one eye. Then came rapid stabs, reminiscent of electric shocks. As the school day progressed, the pain subsided and then came back with increased force. Multiple times that day I left a teaching assistant with worksheets and hurried to the staff bathroom to soak my face with cold water. I took ibuprofen, but the agony remained unrelenting.

The attacks returned repeatedly that fall, and again in the spring, soon establishing an yearly cycle. The autumn months were the most severe, then February and March. I could anticipate the pattern: aura in the shower, early twinges on the train, full-blown pain in the classroom by mid-morning. In late 2019, a doctor finally referred me to a specialist and I was diagnosed with cluster headache disorder.

This condition often start with severe pain around one eye that persists for three hours.

Approximately 1 in 1000 people suffer by the disorder, and men are more often diagnosed. Attacks usually begin with sudden, excruciating pain around one eye that peaks within a short time and lasts for up to three hours. Attacks occur in cycles, daily or multiple times a day, and are associated with tearing eyes, sagging eyelids or facial perspiration. I have an episodic type, which arrives in seasonal bouts; some patients have chronic cluster headaches, characterized by the absence of extended pain-free periods.

What unites patients is the severity. One research paper scored the sensation at 9.7 out of 10, higher than broken bones or pancreatitis. A separate discovered a significant percentage of cluster patients experienced suicidal thoughts during bouts; the number dropped to four percent when they were pain-free.

Val Hobbs, 74, a chronic sufferer from Pembrokeshire, isn't surprised. Her attacks started when she was two. “I would hurl myself on the floor and bang my head. That was put down to being spoiled,” she says. Her symptoms worsened through childhood. Alcohol in her adolescence, similar to many causes, made things worse. After having alcohol at her school leaving party, she remembers barely being able to see on the transport home.

Her relatives often mistook her attacks as drunken episodes. Support eventually came from her father and then from her husband, Rod. “I was very lucky to find such an understanding person,” she says. Hobbs took office work after moving, but often hid her condition. She was fired from one job, partly due to time off during attacks. Her definitive identification came in the early 2000s at a specialist neurology center.

Nevertheless, the inability to plan daily activities around erratic attacks took its toll. She especially disliked being unable to plan social events, being seen as unreliable as a colleague, and even having to be looked after by her children during the incapacitation caused by the worst episodes. “It robs you of the small liberties we don't appreciate until they're gone,” she says. She recalls obtaining tickets for a major concert, only to have an episode inside a portable toilet.


Headaches have been documented across the ages. “The earliest description of headache comes by way of the ancient civilizations in 4000BC,” write experts in a book on the topic. They linked the ailment to an evil spirit who attacked his sufferers' heads.

Ancient medical texts propose bizarre remedies for what modern experts would describe as a migraine. In the middle ages, severe headache was identified as a distinct condition, with treatments including herbal concoctions to other, more folk cures.

It was a Dutch doctor who provided the first detailed account of a cluster headache. In his writings, he describes a patient “suffering with a very intense headache happening and disappearing each day at fixed hours”.

The disorder were only officially recognised by global medical societies in 1988. From the 1960s to the 1990s, they were thought to be caused by a issue with a major artery which supplies blood to the brain. Leading specialists in treating the disorder explain this.

In the late 1990s, scientists released the findings of a study for which they had triggered cluster headaches in patients and monitored the attacks in a brain scanner. The results, published in a major medical publication, showed increased activity of the hypothalamus, which is responsible for human circadian rhythm, when patients were in pain, and a reduction when they felt better.

Despite such progress, diagnosis remains delayed. One man's symptoms started in the 1980s and felt like “a balloon being blown up behind my one eye”. GPs thought he had sinus problems; he had multiple surgeries before finally being diagnosed in recently, after a physician researched his symptoms.

Specialists say delays in diagnosing and treatment happen because patients are seldom seen mid-attack. “You're tired and depressed, but not in severe pain,” one says. He proceeds by ruling out other primary headache disorders, such as tension-type headache, before diagnosing the disorder. A thorough history is essential: on which part of the head do symptoms appear? For how long? What time of year? Are there precipitating factors, such as alcohol? Certain features such as redness, sagging eyelids and stuffy nose help confirm the diagnosis. Once identified, patients may be sent to specialist centers. But many first arrive to A&E or are given unsuitable therapies.

A charity trustee, 78, has experienced the condition for the majority of her life, although she hasn't had an attack since recent years. When she was in her twenties, she had her teeth extracted because dentists misunderstood her symptoms. She thinks dentists still need greater awareness. When another patient sought help from a support group, it was she who responded. The author recalls calling a helpline during an bout in early 2021; a reassuring volunteer talked them through oxygen treatment and medication until the episode eased.

Official guidance on treatment recommend that sufferers are offered high-flow oxygen and/or a specific medication administered by nasal spray. No tablets or opioids should be used. Preventive options include a blood pressure medication, which apparently soothes the attacks of well-known individuals.

But leading specialists believe the guidance need updating to reflect a more defined treatment pathway and help general practitioners avoid incorrect prescriptions. For episodic patients, the treatment window is everything: “The duration of the cycle dictates the treatment.” Brief bouts with infrequent episodes are managed with acute treatment alone. Longer or more intense bouts require preventative medications such as certain drugs, sometimes combined with corticosteroids. A significant number of patients also receive a greater occipital nerve block during a bout – an injection into the area of the skull where the pain is that reduces nerve activity.

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